A bit of time has gone by since IM
Boulder and I have read each of my athletes' race reports. It was a
challenging race for me personally and professionally and, after some
consideration, I realized that it was worth writing a race report
from a coach's perspective. I've never actually read one so I'm kind
of winging it here. I hope you gain some insight from this telling
of the tale. Please apply the appropriate amount of tongue-in-cheek
tone when reading this.
The iTri365 team car: the Batwagon |
When three of my athletes decided to do
IM Boulder, Nate and I decided that it would be a good opportunity
for a work related vacation. I like to make it to at least a few
races every year because it keeps me connected to the emotions of the
day that my athletes feel and, without fail, my athletes are always
grateful when I can be there. So we rented a little house, loaded
the dogs, 5 bikes, and an astonishing amount of luggage into my VW
and headed for Colorado at the beginning of August. When we got
there on Monday night, I researched ALL THE PLACES!! I would ride
and ride and hike and hike and do some coaching too. It was going to
be GREAT!
Rainbow over the Boulder bike course: GOOD OMEN! |
Tuesday I rode part of the course. I
was short on time as storms had taken out part of the day and I
didn't make it as far as I would like but I definitely got a feel for
a portion of it. That proved to be helpful in planning race strategy
and let me bolster the athletes confidence about the nature of the
bike course. My plan was to ride the entire course over the course
of the week.
Wednesday. Oh, Wednesday. Nate and I
found a sweet, non-technical 15 mile mountain bike loop. We headed
out after he was done at work and there were 11 fantastic miles
before I misread a bit of trail and faceplanted on a couple of big
rocks. The result was a badly broken nose, a shattered elbow, and a
large abdominal hematoma (seriously the most painful of the
injuries). They put on a temporary cast and I had to wait until I
returned to Austin for surgery. Nothing about this was in my plans
for the week.
It was an amazing ride... until it wasn't! |
We can pretty much fast forward from
the ER room to the race... it was bed and drugs and not much else. I
walked the dogs with Nate for a few blocks once.
The night before I went over to the
house that they had rented and had a private conference with
each athlete. For each of them, I had concerns and areas of
confidence. We discussed the race
strategy, the course, and I tried to plant ideas in their heads that
may help them if they got into trouble on race day. The theme of all
of it was “problem solve”. Most things that go wrong in a race
can be solved or improved with calm, clear headed thinking... the
very thing that often seems so out of reach when your brain is a soup
of adrenaline and cortisol, and your legs and gut are running the
show. I believe in the power of planting suggestions though, and did
just that. I focused on choosing words that were simple and catchy
enough that they might resonate through all the confusion on race day
and actually come to mind in the moment that they are needed. I was
a bit tickled to read that each athlete felt like she was going to
the principal's office though. That was not my intent. My main
interest was to not clutter their heads with other people's
instructions and since they each had a different race plan, I didn't
want them to start in the ego game of comparing themselves to anyone
else. In all, the conferences were a success as they each mentioned
remembering my words in the heat of the moment. As a coach, those
are the little victories that drive you forward.
The mountains made for a beautiful backdrop on race morning! |
Race day. I'm not going to say this
day was easy. I was not very comfortable walking because everything
was raw and intensely painful. I still wasn't eating well and my
energy was is short supply. But you know, a major race holds as much
adrenaline at the start for me as it ever did, even though I am no
longer racing. That adrenaline helpfully gave me the energy to make
it to the swim start without falling over. This was a victory in
itself. I looked in vain for my three athletes and though I found
their waves in the corrals, I never did pick them out from the sea of
neoprene clad athletes who all looked the same in their color coded
caps. Chances are I looked right at them and didn't realize it.
Kat partied from one end of the course to the other! |
I did connect with our group of
supporters and stayed with them to watch the swim exit. It was the
first time I had gotten any day of info. Keith told me that Gina was
not wearing a wetsuit (what??!!! why didn't I know this?) and was
freezing cold at the start of the swim. She had been doing the
breast stroke to cope and unable to fall into a good swimming rhythm.
The next hour felt like 100 years. Ryan was down at the swim exit
and the rest of us were further up the chute. Suddenly Ryan was
yelling and running... our first athlete was out of the water. It
was Kat. She was rocking and dancing out of the water. She looked
relaxed and fantastic. Check. One discipline down and she was one
swim closer to being an Ironman!
Cori crushing it! |
Cori was next even though she went off
in a later wave. Cori! Cori who worked SO HARD on her swim... who
had so little confidence... who was so worried... had overtaken parts
of the wave in front of her. Gina and Kat are both accomplished
swimmers who teach swimming on a regular basis so to see Cori right
up there trading punches really made me proud. As Cori running up
the ramp, I got a look at her face and she looked good at that point.
I did a little happy dance but was
still deeply concerned about Gina. Last up the ramp was Gina. She
looked cold and stiff. My worry didn't abate much when I saw her.
Even though she clearly had her game face on, it looked like that
swim took a lot out of her. I really wished I could get inside her
head right then but of course, that can't happen. We screamed and
cheered and made sure she knew she was not alone out there. Really,
that is all you can do. Once she passed us, we circled to the
backside of T1 to see her off on the bike. Heading out on the bike,
she looked better. She had her game face on. Her husband and I
agreed that she looked solidly determined. She was also moving
better. She no longer looked totally frozen. I relaxed a bit. I
got to breathe a sigh of relief as all three athletes had
successfully departed on their bikes and there was nothing more to do
but wait. We had made it through the first set of challenges. I say
we because when you coach an athlete through a race like this with
months and months of preparation, you are also very invested in the
race by the end.
Gina pushing through a very tough swim. |
At this point, the pain and nausea
caught up to me. The bus ride back from the swim start to downtown
felt like a form of torture. After conferring with the crew as to
where they would be and how we would regroup, I went back to the
house to pass out for a while.
A couple of hours later, after a nap, I
mustered some resolve (took more drugs) and headed back out to find
my three intrepid souls on the bike course. But before we would do
that, we would find all the traffic in Boulder. We turned down a
road headed for the “flux capacitor” (a central spot on the course) where the Cobb Mobb tent and
a chair was waiting.... and turn right into a parking lot.... no,
actually it was a bit of road construction on the road that all the
race traffic was shunted onto. It was full stop. After debating the
best way to sit in traffic with Nate for about 15 minutes, my phone
rang. I looked at my phone. Ryan. Uh-oh.
“Gina is on her way to the medical
tent”
What?! CRAP!! Honey! Turn the car
around. We have to get to the med tent now. It's at the finish
like. Nate is Batman when it comes to impromptu U-turns and in
moments we were speeding off in that direction. The Batwagon whined a diesel-toned objection as we headed back to the same parking garage we had used that
morning in a big hurry. There was no way I was going to let her pull out of that
race through the med tent and not have me there. I needed to know
what was wrong but I needed more for her to not be alone right then.
It was a few blocks of walking and my
hematoma (nicknamed the edema baby because a more accurate
description was too disgusting to be funny) whined with every step.
I felt like a hot mess. Right then, my front zip sports bra, the
only thing I could get on over the cast, decided to let fly. By the
time I arrived at the Med tent, I had redefined “hot mess”. The
security guard had mercy and gave me permission to use the oversized
port-o-john so that Nate could help me get... reorganized. Right
before heading into the P-o-J, I found Gina coming out of the Med
tent. She looked disappointed but largely okay. If nothing else, my
predicament provided her with a much needed laugh. We whisked off to
the P-o-J, got me sorted, and I stepped out, trying to regain a
little dignity and put my coach's hat on before addressing my
athlete.
We chatted for a few minutes. She had
ultimately succumbed to the effects of the cold water a little more
than halfway through the bike. I felt so badly for her. Something
as simple as a wetsuit, one detail out of place, had robbed her of
her day. Her head was in as good a place as I could have asked
for.... she wanted another shot. (Fast Forward a few weeks... Gina
is a renewed athlete with a focus and single mindedness that I had
not seen in her previously. She will get her second chance and I
really believe she will nail that race to the wall.) She headed home
to change and eat and would meet us at the Cobb tent later.
We knew that the traffic was likely
just as bad now as it had been earlier and we decided to walk. The
edema baby eventually stopped whining with each step and the walk,
while exhausting, felt good. About halfway there, we saw Kat towards
the end of the bike leg. I screamed and yelled to get her attention.
It worked but I had no idea if she registered that it was me. It
was all I could hope for from an athlete at that point. She looked
good, strong, and relaxed. She was smiling and was nicely down in
aero (YES!). I put another check in the box and kept walking. Kat
was doing great.
When we finally got to the tent, I was
wrung out but the excitement was overwhelming. Many of the Cobb Mobb
crew, friends and acquaintances, were already out on the run course.
So was Cori. It wasn't long before she came through the first time.
She looked tired but not unexpectedly so. I sat and relaxed waiting
for her to pass by again. I don't remember which pass it was that
she came through clearly unhappy. The next pass she was in tears. I
have never wished I could run so badly in my life. I wanted to pace
her for a bit and talk her through this. I call these moments course
demons. They lie in wait for everyone. Sooner or later they catch
you. Maybe not this race, maybe not the next, but sooner or later,
IM tests everyone. They had caught Cori today.
I gave her a quick hug and told her to
put one foot in front of the other. I knew she would get through it
if she leveled her considerable determination at it. Ryan took off
after her and I could do nothing but wait. I chatted with Clay (the
race winner) a bit about the challenges of the course and speculated
about what went wrong. But of course speculation is useless. It's
just a thing you can do when you really can't do anything to help.
The next time she came through, eyes were dry and she had her game
face back on. She looked grim but she was going to finish... and
finish with a huge PR. I knew we had some issues to address and was
mentally taking notes for the conversation I knew needed to happen
later on.
We watched her pass by the final times.
Gina showed back up and proved her quality as an athlete and a team
player. She set her own disappointment aside and cheered for her
friends. We talked a bit about future plans and that resolve I
mentioned was already showing. It was clear to me that she was still
in the game.
Gina and her husband enjoying the perks of the location. |
Kat was out on the run course and from
appearances, making sure that everyone within a mile radius was
having as much fun as she was. She wasn't setting any land speed
records but she was putting in respectable, even splits. As much as
you can ever make this assumption, I was pretty sure she had this in
the bag. It was time to head back to the finish and wait for Cori.
I had not been able to eat all day and
once we arrived at the finish, I was nearly passing out. Nate ran to
a nearby store and returned with a smoothie and some juice. He
started to force feed me so that I didn't fall victim to a course
demon. In what was literally the longest group of minutes I have
ever endured, I stood near the finish and waited for Cori. Finally
after what felt like 200 years, Ryan came running up and said Cori
was 5K out, holding steady, and gaining on some other athletes that
we knew were out ahead of her. Course demons or not, she was making
this race her B***h! When she did run down that chute, I was beyond
proud of her.
Cori was dehydrated. The problems had
been hydration and nutrition. Her gut had rebelled and she had been
unable to take in the necessary nutrition. That was why she had
fallen apart on the run. It's common for athletes to struggle with
this at altitude and she was no exception. She went to the medical
tent for an IV and after waiting a bit, Nate and I gave in to hunger
and headed to find food.
We found a quiet Japanese restaurant
where I was served rice with chopsticks. With my right arm in a
cast, that was a cruel joke. I did secure a fork and managed to get
some rice and miso soup into my angry belly. Revived we headed back
to the finish and hooked back up with the crew. Kat should be
bringing it home any minute.
When Kat finally came across the line,
it was a celebration. She rocked her way across that line and found
us shortly. The emotions that came flooding out of her son, Carson,
were incredible to see. She had worked so hard. She had struggled
against the idea that this goal was beyond her. She had gotten up
early, stayed up late, fought back insecurities, beaten back her
tendency to stay injured through correct work and consistency... and
she had set an amazing example for her son to see. I remembered when
my father ran the Western States 100 in 1980 and how that show of
fortitude shaped my adult life. I think Carson has been given a great gift.
Kat, YOU are an IRONMAN! |
Hugs were given and the day was done.
I was overdue for some self care (drugs!) and sleep.
This day, this week, was an exercise in
managing unexpected disappointments. It was also a chance to be
there for people I care about and see my work with my athletes
through to race day. It represented, for me, my coaching career.
Not every race will be perfect but you make the best of the bad times
and go as hard as you can when it's good. With my own racing once
again shunted to the back burner, it reaffirmed that I am in the
right line of work. I learned, I grew, and I saw my athletes do the
same.
Kat, Cori, Gina... iTri365 could not be more proud! |