I am still pondering what the thought processes of the beginning of the week mean and want to update my conclusions. I realize that I am slowly internalizing and becoming comfortable with the idea of being a triathlete and taking that to the next level. Where I once felt that I wasn't good enough to treat myself like a true athlete, prioritizing my health, happiness, and well being, I am starting to do that as a standard of living. By the end of the week, I felt that I was good enough and my dream was worth making substantial change. Instead of feeling sorry for myself because I have a lot of old injuries, I am just looking for solutions, even when those solutions push me outside of my comfort zone. I am also now willing to be organized and focused with my time, in part because I now provide myself with quality down time... and don't apologize for it. It is a very good way to live.
I don't expect it to be all smooth sailing from here. Rather I fully expect the journey to continue to demand difficult and sometimes painful change or sacrifice, but I am committed to it and for today (and today is the only day worth considering), I believe in my ability to do what is asked of me. Going forward into this week, I have a full but (hopefully) not oppressive schedule. I am planning to take the week head on and be as true to myself through care and disciplined training as possible.