Yesterday was a good day. Had another run-in with that wall during some threshold intervals. I am convinced that the culprit is nutrition (more on that in a moment). Still, I recovered quickly and got to play in NYC for the day with MVF, the cycling fiend. For a change, we wore things like denim and wool instead of spandex and well, more spandex. We knocked around all day, walking everywhere, and finished up with an opera at the Met! It was sublime! Then we concluded the day with a crazy 34 block speed session to catch a train!
Today, I started the day with swim that got postponed from yesterday (with DW blessing) to facilitate the trip. I actually felt ok. It took forever to warm up but then I felt stronger with each set. A big relief after so many workouts this week feeling so rough. Then I ran some errands, including grocery shopping, and headed home for lunch.
I couldn't find my usual brand of almond butter or sunflower butter, not uncommon when you are traveling, so I grabbed another that wasn't too terribly expensive. When I got home I made a quick sandwich with gluten free bread and some apple slices. I was ravenous and it needed to be quick. The almond butter had flax in it, but that is okay, and I didn't think a thing of it until I got the splitting headache and my stomach swelled to "seven months along and it might be twins" proportions. THEN, I read the label. WHEAT germ. Damn.
I have been really struggling and suspect that the poor performance and digestion this week may be due to the chronic, low-grade irritation that my system is getting from preparing food in a VERY contaminated kitchen. I just felt deficient all week. It was like I hadn't refueled after my last workout... but I had. Now I am hoping that I can get things quieted down in time to finish what is on the schedule for today. Ugh!
I cannot let my guard down like that. The price has gotten too high. I have a choice. I can either continue to muck around inside my own head, not doing the right things nutritionally, or I can get it together. I will not get as fit as I hope to if I do not figure this out.
Of course, this is why I got the Airstream.
I have 38 weeks of traveling ahead of me and I can't keep getting sick. When I leave my mother's house after Christmas and pick up the camper, I need to go through it and clean it thoroughly. And then I need to make my well-being my number one priority, no matter who thinks it is silly, is inconvenienced (including me), thinks I'm being hysterical or high maintenance or a baby... Those judgements will not keep me healthy. Only I can do that.
But it's really, really hard.